Im too bored thats why i figured i should start up a private blog for my endless ranting.

Weien is too busy for me and i don't want to give him too much pressure by injecting too much of my nonsense into his stress-filled uni life.

So i might as well rant to myself here.

Same routine. 

I woke up today and went through the same series of regretful feelings that i should have gone to a uni course.

What the hell am i doing right now? 

I've no freaking idea.

There's work tomorrow. whee.

Cant believe Im actually looking forward to it even though Im so underpaid.

Maybe cause Im thrown with a lot of stressful work which i haven't been for quite some time.

I remembered myself as a workaholic.

But if you were to ask me what is the best adjective I would describe myself now, 

it would be V.

Im V-ing now.

He became a vile adjective idk ever since when.

Definition of v : Doing nothing, Slacking around, Majorly wallowing in self-pity, Procrastinating, Waiting for the world to change, Always complaining, Poignancy.

Ha. ok. Private blog, private talk.

Im pretty troubled on what to give for weien on his upcoming birthday.

Most prolly I will stick to my brilliant organizer-calendar gift.

I want to make it like a pretty scrapbook but I don't see myself being as artistic as that.

At least xianghui was good enough to bring me out and around for inspirations i would never get while lying on the bed watching cartoons.

A's around the corner again.

Time flies. & all i did was remain stagnant, allowing all the nuisances to thrive on me.

&where the hell did Jiayi go?

Stupid biatch is in australia camp.

I need him around as my emotional pillar.

We share the same plight.

He's on the same flight with me to nowhere.

But he is nowhere near me either.

I feel guilty for not attending sunday schools.

They taught me a lot of life lessons but somehow i seem to lose faith.

But i still pray.

Not that much though.

I seldom talk to God anymore.

I know He listens.

But sometimes i just wonder if He's just too busy for a whiny little screwed up girl like me.

fml. fmnul.

Fuck my life. Fuck my non-uni life.

I just want to conform into the normal lifestyle as my peers.

But I wasnt even granted that. sighhh.