Met up with Keith, Luke, Ivan, Alvan and Zhiyang today.
I initiated the meet up cause honestly, i feel super lonely.
I need to have back my social circle.
We played LAN after lunch. Team fortress and L4D2.
It was awesome. All the shooting seems to vent out my frustrations.
Saw gab chia after LAN.
He changed alot. He got kicked out by ac and he is studying at mdis now.
Deep down inside, i still kinda treat him like a lil bro and see the cute side of him.
&somehow, to me, it seems like he's dying to change into someone else that everyone is foreign with.
He wants and needs more attention. Sign.
He reminds me of Vester.
Somehow i feel obliged to love them more than others.

Recently Weien has been caught up with his studies and stuff.
He said that he feels stressful as he needs to juggle his studies, family, our relationship and social circle at the same time.
I felt miserable as tears welled up in my eyes.
I miss him like hell but i have and want more of him but i have to spare a thought for him at the same time.
Hearts get fonder with absence.
Hopefully, its applicable to him too.
Hate to admit it but sometimes i really feel like giving up.
The last thing i want from a relationship is that it no longer feels like one.
Like you spend more of your time missing than loving.
I mean how does it makes sense anymore?
But i know i wouldn't. (: It would be such a fatal mistake to.
Although he seldom say sweet nothings to me anymore and is not as affectionate as he used to be,
I still can't forget what we had.
The patient, soft and gentle weien.
I feel distant from him now but Im still very much familiar with how he used to be.